Happiness

It seems like all year, all I've been trying to do is be happy. For some reason.. It won't happen. I mean, When I'm with my friends, of course I have fun. I laugh so much when I'm with them, & I always have a great time. It's just when I get home, lay my head on the pillow & think.. all I think about is the past. And how happy I USED to be. Not how happy I am now. I would be the happiest girl ever if everything was just like it was two years ago. For a while there, I thought that was going to happen. Looks like I was wrong.